Why do we still live here, in this repulsive town? All of our friends are in New York.

E-word,

Is there something wrong with the fact that I've lived in the same 5 mile radius for almost my entire life? Somehow, I don't know. Some people, they move from here to there to there and back (you've done a good amount of moving since I've known you, actually), and here I am. I'm a townie. I like where I live I guess, I know El thinks it's alright, like a place to raise a family and enough Korean food to keep us satisfied, but I still wonder sometimes if I'm lacking character or something. I'm being serious.

On that note, I've been pretty isolated lately. When El is around, I stay somewhat grounded because I'm not really a social butterfly, and when I was in grad school, I had fellow students to talk to, and even on my last project, I was surrounded by people and always chit-chatting away. Now, though, I'm on a subdued project where I can just stay at my computer and do stuff. I don't manage anyone, so I don't have folks to talk to on the regular. I don't have grad school, and El is still away. I'm becoming a legend in my own mind, and I'm thinking it's because I'm not conversing regularly. I'm thankful that I'm aware of it, but I'm not always aware of it. I'm starting to believe I'm martyred or something, which I think happens when you just stew in your thoughts. I'm a little troubled by this.

Anyway, I got nothing, really.

Love,

Toe