Isn't it a pity, isn't it a shame

I don't mean to sound melodramatic, but I feel like the world is falling around my ears. I am actually feeling totally overwhelmed right now. 

We suspect that our beautiful son may have autism. I know that I'm not supposed to feel like a failure as a parent, but fuck. i LOVE THIS LITTLE SHIT SO MUCH and I'm scared that he won't have a fair chance in life. El and I are in marriage counseling right now, and there seems to be a glimmer of hope, but to have to focuse on my son and on our marraige is just, it's like demolishing a mountain with a ice pick. We also have a mountain of credit card debt which just doesn't make any fucking sense- El started working again so we have more money than we've had in years, and it's like water down a drain. My credit card recently got rejected because we were over the fucking limit, which is goddamned high. 

I have fucking food poisoning. I think I have salmonella, so I'm just exhausted. And I am fucking swamped at work. And I am resigning tomorrow to go to another company. What the fuck? Why is this happening all at the same goddamned time? I feel like fucking Job.

I had to get this off my chest. I am fucking, My to-do list is a bit overloaded.

Love,

Toe