Hybrid mode

Toe,
I understand about the numbness that work can engender. (Uh, I think engender is the right word.) Lately I've felt that way as well--the feeling of knowing that there is a lot that needs to be done, but not quite knowing where to begin. The wall image you use is a good one. Right now I'm feeling a little bit lost in work, perhaps in life, too.

I posted a picture of my desk this, taken just moments ago. It may be sideways, but that's the way I am feeling lately.

Man, I can't imagine how you and Hi C's husband do it, with your wives so far away. I can hardly bear it when my wife is away for just a week visiting family, or if I am away on business. It's a feeling that's hard to describe--"missing" does not seem to get the full scope of it, but I suppose that's the best word. But you guys do the best with what you have, with the situation you have. I think it goes into the whole "in sickness and in health." Marriage, ideally is not supposed to involve any kind of separation, the same way its not supposed to involve (ideally) any illness or poverty, but if that is what is required or what circumstances dictate, then you do the best you can.

I'm sounding all pragmatic this morning. I have a sinus infection or a cold or something, and I'm hungover from Nyquil, so I think my tone my be off.

I hope you get a chance to be dazed and lay on the sofa today. I've been feeling kind of down and blue myself the past few days. I've been half-working, half-not, but not completely giving in to either depression or to productivity. I think if I could just have a blue day, where I sat alone under a blanket and felt sorry for myself and the world, I could push through this feeling and just get back to work. But I can't take any time, so there we have it, a hybrid mode of living.

Not sure when I will be in your area--I need to figure that out. Part of my mood these days has been to resist all travel, so I haven't made any plans. I'll turn that around soon enough.

Take care, man. Keep your pecker up.

E-word