The Pit and the Perpendiculum

Toe,
Judo sounds like everything I imagined. You are going to kick someone's ass one day, I can sense it. I like the image of you, El, and future-child doing Judo together.

My tolerance for pain is so low, I am not sure I could take that kind of training. I enjoy Aikido, or at least did when I was studying it 9 years ago. I am so uncoordinated, though, that I never mastered a lot of the rolls and falls that we had to learn. For some reason I have a deficient ability to roll head over heels or somersault, which is required in Aikido. My sensei was so patient, it never seemed like a problem for me to continue with the program, but I know I was not doing so well, ultimately.

As I type, the sun comes out. I feel at peace, but there are a lot of stressful things going on with my work at the moment. Nothing I can't surmount. Maybe that's why I feel peaceful, because I know I can handle this. Yesterday I was feeling kind of hopeless about everything I need to do, and about life in general, but somehow today I feel great. They always say that when you feel depressed, just remember that the feeling will pass. So hard to remember that when you are at the bottom of a pit, as I have been at times, emotionally. So easy to laugh at the bottom when you feel up.

Why do I feel so good? I think it's because I ran 3+ miles this morning. Or the fact that the sun is out after days of rain? Or maybe it's the progress I made on a project I have. I don't know. Better just to enjoy the feeling without analyzing, because Jesus, I felt like shit yesterday.

I am off the clock, for the moment. But I have a lot of work to do and need to get back on. Just wanted to say hello and let you know life is going on. The garden is growing well. My tomatoes are starting to show, and the red cabbage is forming tight little heads. Damn it, I love growing food.

Love,
E-Word