Tell me one more time, you like the shoes I wear

E-word,

Our log does go to waste. The days fly by. It's summer, and as usual all that I have on my mind is El, work, school, Ultimate Fighting, and fashion. It's so funny, I totally bore myself, but manage to keep entertained. I don't feel particularly fulfilled, but I think 'not particularly fulfilled' still implies a certain amount of life satisfaction. It's a life, you know? I work on a very interesting and creative project, two nights a week I take a class on finite element method/analysis, and on the weekends I spend lots of time with El.

It could be so much worse.

Part of me feels like I should be longing or maybe striving for more. Ocassionally I'll feel a twinge of guilt for how my life has turned out, but really things are satisfactory right now. It's definitely not a time of me feeling like I'm progressing. I'm going to school, sure, but it's not something that really moves me, it's not something that excites me. It fills the time, and gets me closer to an advanced degree I want a little. I don't want it a lot, I think El wants it for me more than I do, but I must want it a little to sacrifice so much time for it.

Oh, El got her green card last weekend. It was kind of a surprise, actually, as the woman who interviewed us told us to expect to wait 3-4 months, not 2 weeks.

Summer, summer. E-word, it's been a long time since your last entry, and a long time since we've last talked. I hope things are good for you up in your (I'm assuming) hot and humid midwestern town. I also hope you'll be able to make it out here soon as well. It's always good to catch up.

Take care,

Toe