Motivation train

Your train-platform vignette is really awesome. It is a very touching, bittersweet kind of scene, and so classic that it is on a train platform. I love trains!

I hear your longing for the everydayness of marriage. I felt that way for a while when C* and I first got married, but of course, I was only out of town 3 days a week. Still, I know the feeling somewhat. That whole first year of our marriage I was basically a part time resident in my own home. Since then, I've become something of an "art widower," losing her to her work, either at school or on her own art. Then when she comes home, I am often in the middle of working on something, so we both end up doing our own thing anyway. I think this is normal, though, especially in the U.S. People put their work before everything. This isn't to say that you and I or our wives don't value our marriages above our jobs. It's just that in the everydayness, priority tends to go to our jobs or careers.

I'm rambling. Your point is more about geography, obviously. It has got to be hard being separated for 5 days at a time, and not having a regular, daily schedule in which you and your wife work in relative proximity and see each other at the end of the day. It will come one day, I am sure.

I'm having trouble again motivating for work. I am working on an extra project these days in the evening, so I think I need to take a break mid-day instead of plowing through like I usually do. I think I'm going to go for a walk or something.

I ran and lifted weights this morning. Trying to extend my running distance. I have trouble pushing myself this way, but my goal is to get up to 3 miles in a month (right now I am at just over 2). I'll try to keep increasing gradually and see how it goes. I think my main excuse is the time factor--if I am going to run 2 miles and lift weights and stretch, that takes a little over an hour. That's a long time in the morning! Going up to 3 miles will add another 10 minutes onto my workout! Yes, it sounds so whiny when I add up the time. I should just do this.