Look at me, I'm on tv, it makes up for the shortcomings of being poor

E-word,

I have neglected our log. Lately when I sit down in front of the machine to try to type something down, I don't feel very sharp. That's not to say that I'm not completely distracted all the time anyway.

Yesterday I went to church with El, and whle we were standing during praise, I felt remarkably repressed by my surroundings. Even driving into the church parking lot is stressful, I'm probably reading too much into this, but I swear that when I go to church everyone drives an expensive car. My church is also not the most welcoming, or at least by my perceptions. I could make more strides to 'engage' the church and become more active, but I'm actually somewhat afraid to. I'm so shy and selective about whom I like to be with as it is, I'm afraid to join a community that may mock me or not fully accept me. Like I said, I'm not feeling sharp, but the wheels keep turning, tell you what.

It'll be good to see you tomorrow, man. We'll plan things out. Maybe we should meet close to your work, or should we meet after? You mentioned Ethiopian (which I haven't had in ages. El
seems a little frightened by it), and that'd be great to have. Maybe we could meet at Dupont, and hike out to Adams Morgan? It's not that far, really.

Anyway, blah. We'll talk tomorrow at the latest.

Toe