And when I asked for a separate room
It was late at night, and we'd been driving since noon
But if I'd known how that would sound to you
I would have stayed in your bed for the rest of my life
Just to prove I was right

That it's harder to be friends than lovers
And you shouldn't try to mix the two
'Cause if you do it and you're still unhappy
Then you know that the problem is you
And it's true that I stole your lighter
And it's also true that I lost the map

But when you said that I wasn't worth talking to
I had to take your word on that
But if you'd known how that would sound to me
You would have taken it back

And boxed it up and buried it in the ground
Boxed it up and buried it in the ground
Boxed it up and buried it in the ground
Burned it up and thrown it away
You put in my hands a loaded gun
And then told me not to fire it

When you did the things you said were up to me
And then accused me of trying to fuck it up
But you've never been a waste of my time
It's never been a drag
So take a deep breath and count back from ten
And maybe you'll be alright

And the license said you had to stick around until I was dead
But if you're tired of looking at my face, I guess I already am
But you've never been a waste of my time
It's never been a drag
So take a deep breath and count back from ten
And maybe you'll be alright

These are the riches of the poor

Hello gentlemen,
Lately I've been feeling somewhat lost in my job. My ego has taken a severe bruising, in part because I have not done as well as I would have liked, and also I have apparently disappointed my bosses, although that's complicated, too--I am still trying to parse out how much of of their expressed disappointment is a strategic management tool to move me in some direction, or whether they are in fact so disappointed after all. Anyway, the situation is also muddled by other issues, too. I find I am pretty much a paranoid wreck at the workplace, something I am not in my ordinary life. It's starting to wear on me. It's hard not being able to trust what people are saying, and exhausting to always trying to sift out meaning. Plus, it does not lead me to really like my coworkers, particularly those with whom I might be in direct competition. I've had moments of competitive pricktitude in the past, and its not something I am interested in returning to.

Then there's the whole problem of how much of this is really going on and how much of this I am imagining. Plus, what am I missing? I sometimes miss social undercurrents. This could be even more complex than I realize.

I am a bit down about all this. Trying to pick myself up.

Hope you all are well. Carry on, anyway.
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