Don't stop believin'
E-word,
I can't imagine I'm the first person to call facebook facefuck. When I don't think of high school, I can't hardly remember names of folks from back then, but somehow I started flipping through and seeing faces of people who I haven't thought of in years, and who in all reality I wouldn't be able to recognize now. Jesus H Christ. Sometimes I think I need to face my fear of these people and maybe move the fuck on. I'm a grown fucking man. I think there used to be a time that you could just start the fuck over without the baggage of an ill-remembered childhood, but with this bullshit internet thing, it's like- shit, I don't know. It also made me sad that I'm still living in the same fucking place, like most of these provincial-ass motherfuckers I grew up with, it's like we're all fucking neighbors or some shit. I've moved on, goddammit. I've moved onto bigger and better things, I've made good friends, I've fallen in love, I've built a life, I'm a million miles away from that life but the fucking internet, the fucking internet won't let me let go of my past. Fucking hell.
I can be a neurotic fruitcake. Damn. My heart palpitated when I went through facebook. I'm feeling much better now. I know it sounds obvious and silly, but I've moved beyond those kind of troubled years. I have had experiences and lived a life that is not encompassed by high school. Man, I sound ridiculous. I graduated 18 years ago!
I think you are thinking of becoming a teacher for the wrong reasons. I know you are just musing, but screw teaching if you can make much more money doing what you're doing. I mean, I'm all up for summers off, but if you take a paycut you'll probably just end up working summers anyway doing your old job. But, at the same time, if you have a bug in your butt (I don't think I've ever used that phrase before), you do have all the connections you need to try it out for a semester or year, right?
I will have something to you. It's an odd fragment of a story- sorry it's not completed, this is going to take a little bit more work than usual, like I need to really do a little research to make this believable.
Love,
Toe
posted by Toe Jaleo @ 12:52 PM
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1 Comments:
the thing i like about facefuck is that i'm able to reconnect with people that i wish i had stayed in touch with. the thing i hate about facefuck is that other people are able to look me up. of course the flip side to this is that i don't have to "confirm" them as friends, and vice/versa. i sat on the fence on quite a few people (exgirlfriends, friends of exgirlfriends, old church associates that honesly i forgot about, that kind of thing) for a few months before i realized the same thing you pointed out: i'm a grown ass man, dawg. what am i really hiding from?
i made my choiced to live my life the way i want a long time before facefuck came along, and 99% of the people that i have "friended" knew this already. it actually surprised me to find one of my long lost Pittsburgh friends on there, because she hated these things too--didn't do myspace, no blog, nothing on the web except for her company info. she told me she finally did it because it's a networking tool...plus she's tired of calling and emailing all the folk in Pitts all the time (she's in Chicago now). yeah, it's easy and lazy, but disconnection gets to people in different ways.
i have a love/hate thing with it, because when i'm feeling disconnected i can see what everyone else is doing, comment if i like, whatever. but there's also weeks on end when i ignore it...cause honestly, who cares? but i've also struck up a friendly rivalry with a girl i somewhat grew up with back in Columbus because she is somehow a Lakers fan and i'm a Cavs fan...it's stupid stuff like this that makes it almost worthwhile.
just a thought. oh, my restaurant burned this last weekend btw...fun times!
hope all is good, drop me a line sometime.
jer.
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